To Be or Not To Be

One thing about me, I've been so good at convincing myself I am perfect for something, just to turn around and talk myself out of it based on how others may disqualify me. I have got to stop counting myself out. Deep down, there are so many things in this life I want to explore and conquer, and I've been told in more ways than one that is is impossible to do/have everything. My question to the people who say such things is why?

Why can't I be successful at one thing and then move on to the next? Why can't I have divided interests? But most importantly, I must reflect with myself and ask why have I allowed such a definitive belief of someone else's cloud my own? Am I not the co-creator of my destiny? Isn't the purpose of real prayer and manifestation to do the impossible? Why would I let someone else's limits become my own?

Truth be told, I don't have a real answer, but I think I have a solution. It's called doing things afraid. I've learned that through any and every life changing event, the world keeps turning. You must either keep up or allow everything else to move on without you. I absolutely have a fear of failing, but the fear of success for me is much worse. The only way to overcome something like that is to do the scary thing anyway. I will forever value growing and being better over living in fear.

That being said, I'm dedicating year 25 to just doing things because I can. That is the only way to truly practice trust in God, or the universe, or simply the notion that everything is meant to work out. I am strictly conquering fear starting today. Right now. I invite the rest of you to join me. Stop sleeping on yourself, and stop being afraid because the world is sleeping on you.






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